The last few days have been challenging, to say it mildly. I don’t know if it’s the cold, the fact that the Christmas season is upon us and we can’t afford gifts for our kids (not that I’d actually get them anything anyway, even if we could…probably a topic for another post), a child that has been having the WORST attitude, or the fact that bills are here and finances aren’t quite matching up.
We’ve been here before. The place where we’re living paycheck to paycheck. Cutting back where possible, but this time, it feels different.
Dave has been doing the Miracle Morning for the past few months….I tried for a week, and Franklin thought that me waking up was a signal for him to wake up too….so it didn’t last long. Anyway, Dave and the Miracle Morning. I’ve seen a shift in his mindset. Each morning he does affirmations and visualizations….he speaks aloud the things he wants his mind to focus on, and then visualizes that life. While we’re not there, I have no doubt that what God has placed within him (Dave) will come to fruition. It all just takes time.
And while we’ve been scraping by, I don’t feel like my faith is being challenged. I KNOW that God cares for us. It might not be pretty in the daily grind, and our credit may suffer, but I know that He loves us and that He won’t let us be fully without. I’m not sure what exactly the future holds, but I do know that God is bigger than my circumstances, and that even in this hard stuff, He can and will be glorified.
We just came out of the “Thankful season”, and I keep going back to what I’m thankful for. Each one of our 5 kids are healthy, and for the most part, happy – which ultimately isn’t the goal. They are growing and learning, and I’ve seen them more and more desiring to know God more. (I give all the credit there to Dave!)
And for those of you reading this who know us personally, you may be surprised that we’re struggling…kind of hard. It’s not something that is easily shared, but it is a reminder to make sure you are looking deeply into the lives of those around you. And it’s also a great reminder for me, to actually be vulnerable and share. So I am.
I was studying for my real estate license renewal, and couldn’t get these thoughts off my mind…so here they are. Maybe it’s cathartic for me to write it out, or maybe it’s the Holy Spirit reminding me not to be prideful, but now that it’s out there, while that’s a little terrifying, I feel at peace. So thanks for reading, and letting me share what’s on my heart.